i wrote this one a
few days after my 23rd birthday and i left it unpublished and i don't
know exactly why i did this.
this poem is about someone i shared a particular
period of my life with.. someone whom i wished i'd been able to give my whole
life, but life is not that simple..
i had a whole other speech prepared as an intro for
this poem, but let's just not say much and hopefully the poem says enough..
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see your lights on
in the cold nights
down your window
i stand looking up
thinking how you're taking it
wishing that you're moving on
but at least the lights tell me
you're still breathing
happy as it makes me
it breaks down my soul
thinking that maybe now you hate me
like nothing was there at all
knowing that i can't blame you
i really wish i'd never had to hurt you
I really wish I’d never had to let go
hoping that one day maybe you'll forgive me
hoping that one day maybe you'll see
remembering that last night
with that unforgetable goodbye
God you were so pretty that night
and the tears on your face then still burns my soul
every day and night they torment me
i wish i'd swept them away with my hand
and dapped on your shoulder and smiled
telling you it's gonna be alright
but how could i....
now that i think of all the words i should've said
all the things i should've done
all that you deserved from me
and i couldn't give it this time
now that i think of all the reasons why i couldn't say a word that
day
all the reasons why i just left without a word
only my tears in my eyes
the tears you never saw
oh God i wish you'd seen them
and known they were real
and known they were for you
and seen how sincere and real they were
sincere enough to say all the words i should've said
real enough to do all the things i should've done
if only i'd had the chance to turn around and make you see
those tears burning deep inside me
if only i'd had the chance to turn around and make you see
how much you will forever mean to me....
