don't no how to start
don't no what to say
everything looks dark
everything feels sad
even breath.. becoming heavy
wondering
asking a million questions
how what why.. why.. why
love is supposed to be that flood that never stops
so why do some people need you to beg it out of them?!
emotions are something that should well up from our
inners
so why some people are so cold they don’t seem to have
any?!
Love is known to be all about care
so how come some people act like their spouses are the
ones they care about the least?!
what the hell is wrong with this mad world?!!
why.. why?!
when you give.. and give.. and give..
and wait to find that you still have to beg to take
you must stop.. you must stop and think
there must be something wrong
something not right
you or them.. or maybe both of you
but something must be wrong
maybe it was wrong to give unlimited
maybe it was wrong to beg
or maybe it was wrong to expect something good in the
first place
or even maybe…. well, Youssof had kept it to himself.
sick? yeah.. sure
tired? Yeah.. kinda
there’s another word still..
exhausted it is
yes.. exhausted
exhaustion
that’s exactly what will have to come when you give and
give and die to get something back that you should get without even thinking to
ask for..
it’s exhaustion, frustration, bitterness.. it’s a blend
of all of them
a blend no one can ever bear its taste
a blend that interferes with a normal life
a blend that makes you wonder, is it worth it?
and it hurts to even think about it…
i once read a word i strongly disagreed to, now it makes
a perfect sense..
“don’t let someone else puts the colors to your life,
maybe the only color they have is black”
